Tuesday, October 12, 2010

My first task in discomfort

Wow, I sure haven't posted for a while!
I was just sitting on the toilet, leafing through some magazines, when I realized, in a kind of toiletty epiphany that I do not want to be comfortable.
Actually, it is a thought I have had for a while now. I guess I have decided that comfort does not in fact make me happy. Sure, briefly I am happy, but after a while I start to feel dull and stupid, and I don't want to feel stupid. So from now on, I am going to go out of my way to find discomfort. In physical ways as well as emotional ways, and intellectual ways. Not to say that I will never feel comfortable again. I probably will. It is probably unavoidable. But I think that if I try to feel uncomfortable most of the time, if I struggle, then maybe those brief moments of comfort will be like little cadences in my life. I think that maybe this will bring me lasting joy.
I only worry that I am too cowardly to properly pull this off. I just watched a short video on boingboing about train hoppers, and to be honest I don't think that I could be that uncomfortable. Not yet anyway. I am going to take small steps. Firstly, I am going to listen to an entire discography tonight. I usually can't stand listening to more than a whole album at once, but I am going to sit myself down and force myself to listen to the entire works of Trent Reznor. I will let you know if I have any epiphanies. This is my first task in discomfort. Wish me well.